Sunday, January 15, 2012

Did Chris Have Regrets?

Going into his travels, its obvious that Chris was trying to escape his family and society, but how critical is Chris of himself?  Did he acknowledge his side of his abrasive relationship with his father?  Did he recognize that his family would be deeply hurt by his disappearance?  Did he recognize how he affected the people he met? How self-critical was he of his actions?
I see Chris' attitude towards his father is so much more complex that any of his other relationships.  They were close, yet they hurt each other greatly through misunderstanding the other.  Chris obviously blames his father for the disconnect between them, but does he see himself at fault too? Personally, Chris seems to be less hard on himself when it comes to his relationship with his father.  Rainey hits it on the head when he says in the movie that "kids are hard on their parents."  Chris seems to reserve a special judgement for his father, and the hurt seems to be worse due to the fact that they are family, like in Sherman Alexie's "Every Little Hurricane."  I think that Chris also knew that his family would take his actions in different ways.  he seemed to know that Carine would understand his actions, his mother would be scared of his actions and their ramifications, and his dad would be angry at how "thoughtless" Chris was being.  I think Chris had carefully considered how his actions would affect his family, but he lacked sympathy for how his parents would react.
Chris undoubtedly had a deep connection with many people on his journeys, such as the Burreses,  Westerberg, and Franz, but did he know the kind of emotional scarring his death could have?  I think he knew of the emotional ties they had, but I also think that his death was such an abstract thought that its full ramifications escaped his thoughts.  His only crime was being too young to recognize how much his death would affect those closest to him.  He isn't responsible for his death, because what happened could have happened to anyone in his situation, yet his lack of experience offers an easy culprit for his death.  I wonder if it is a matter of not comprehending death completely, or seeing a cause so vividly that you would die for it.   Chris didn't want too die, but did death phase him in his journey?  The threat of dying seemed to only add to the vigor in which he pursued his journey.  He took minimal supplies with him to add to the experience of going into the wild.  Though he romanticized his journey,  I believe that his only regret was not making it out to convey the true meaning of his Alaskan odyssey, and his death is by no means a result of his only inability or lack of intelligence, but a result of a cruel twist of fate.

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